Saturday, December 05, 2009

came back from des's place rather upset today.
sigh... well, at least the fish and chips didn turn out that bad...
i guess instead of wishing for him to care more,
maybe i should care less instead...
maybe im just in love with my imagination.
gona watch twiligt even though we are gona watch it tml
on condition that dorothy bought the tickets(which i honestly don think she had)
and also cos its much nicer o watch it alone i guess...
des cant appreciate pain and loneliness... he needs fun and trill
and i don think i feel like going tml anyway, cos its a birthday party.
yea im anti social... i noe...

two of my orchid died today.
they were uprotted by e rain.
so i decided to bring them home...
i'll grow them up till they are big enuff to fend for themselves.
i really love them!
thats all...

missing you at 3:05 AM

now that i've found a rather good job, i dont really feel happy
i guess its because i would have to work on weekends.
the problem with working on weekends is that i might not be able to meet desmond!
i cant live with that!
I really don know if i can sacrifice desmond for work.

its a 7 dollars an hour job.

sigh...

it feels weird walkin in town without des...
everything seems bigger, scarier.
people seems to be staring with judgmental eyes...
its not that im overly self conscious or low in self confidence.
its just that i feel lonely.
and i miss him....
i cant even explain how much i miss him...

suddenly, the world is turning even faster. no breaks, no holidays...
suddenly, im not just a student, im a worker, im in the labor force and im seeking employment.
suddenly the cost of travelling can burn a big hole in my pocket.
suddenly, suddenly, im faced with the possibility that i will be very long and very far apart from him...
till god knows when...
sigh...

i do want this job.
but i do want him too!
im greedy aint i?
i really miss him... sigh...

Labels: feeling about a good job

missing you at 4:18 AM

my mom accidentally packed one of my brother's important army document together with piles of our notes which are to be sold away.

I've never really seen my bro panic like this before. not even when he is late for a levels. not even when he cant find his exam text. no... yet today, he panic and almost gave up, almost cried, because if he cant find the papers, he would be sent to detention barracks (jail for army)

while we were going through the papers page by page, stack by stack, i thought, holy cow... had i really went through all these papers in less than two years? could it be possible?





eventually we found it... it was lucky... really lucky...

maybe god loves him, and us...

missing you at 9:40 AM

its unofficially over! ah....
come what may...
lets just play lik crazy
and not worry about next year, where will i be?

missing you at 5:49 AM

A level was epic....

i must say its the toughest paper i have seen in a level past papers so far....

economics.
Q1a) access the extend to which market dominance rather than any other potential mkt failure is the major cause of gov. intervention in mkt of goods and services within singapore.

people who study economics will know how bloody challenging this question is. not just because of a lot of application in a short time but also because the amount of concepts tested.

Here is the breakdown. must write the extend and compare with other mkt failure.
there are 5 types of market failure. out of which, inequity cannot be writen here cos its out of point. It test on gov intervention and to amount of intervention. lastly it in in context of singapore....

okay question 5b) even better.

access whether these economic indicators (GDP and balance of payment ) are the best measure for economic perfomance and standard of living.

this question is OMGISH

tested concepts are
1)BOP with economic perfomance
2)BOP with sol
3)GDP with economic perfomance
4)GDP with sol
5) best indicator
6)out of which, economic growth can be long term or short term,
7) limitations of GDP
8)limitations of BOP
9) other indicators need to be added and explained. eg (MEW)(HDI) for sol
unemployment rate or inflation rate for economic growth...

and after ding this breakdown, i tink im gona fail....

Labels: rant about a level

missing you at 1:47 AM

I might have really screwed A levels.
Gp compre was sough. even wen pu agreed.
I wrote question 10)can food transported over vast distance ever be justified?
wen pu say i may be out of point...

bio was a real killer in our school.
mostly because of our lousy notes.
there was a question on telomerase. 13 marks
our notes hardly touch on telomerase.(less than one page) and its a self reading.
considering the concept is quite hard, we are screwed.
of course the same is not true to hwa chon student...
school does matters... T_T
already found 16 marks lost in chem p3 due to careless mistake...
(PLEASE KILL ME)

was reading up on uni admission and realised environmental engineering prequisit include h2 math which i do not have...

there goes my dream...

then again the cut off point is aaaa for NUS and Abbb for NTU
i think im not enough to dream about it...

now im really lost...

missing you at 4:40 AM

Love is always patient and kind
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish
It does not take offense it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins
But delights in the truths
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, to endure,
Whatever comes

Love is like the wind, you can’t touch it,
But you can feel it…

to witness a miracle

quotes from a walk to remember

missing you at 12:44 AM